Reblogged from tianaaahope
Sing me to Heaven
Jeremiah 29:11
I know that everybody has secrets, right? Well go ahead, don’t bottle them in. Tell me anonymously anything you have to get off your chest and I will tell you what I think about it(: I am here for everybody. Go ahead please (:
(Source: leahhkaye, via queenofdenial)
“All things great are wound up with all things little.”
- L. M. Montgomery, Anne of Green Gables
(Source: storybookloveaffair)
(Source: scienceandrollerskates, via smellalltheroses)
I called on you lately come on and rescue me
I feel like a calendar from another year
This barren ground these bones are dry and ready
I break bread and wine but still I’m feeling empty
Sick of this see-saw of going up and down
I see the rescue but would I rather drown?
Love is a lesson that I never learned in school
I was sick in bed that day and so I played a fool
There is this guy that I think I might be in love with. He is amazing always there when I need to talk and just has the bigist heart of anyone I have ever met. He is crazy on fire for God and wants nothing more than to live right in the center of his will. Honestly I could go in about him for hours. But the thing is as much as I care about him I don’t think we could ever be in a relationship. I don’t want to date someone unless I think I can marry them and I don’t know if I could marry him. He is wonderful but I don’t think we could ever live together, we are polar opposites, and even if he did care for me we would drive each other up the wall spending 24/7 together. Over time it would chip away at our relationship and drag us apart. I don’t think I am articulating this very well but I guess what I am trying to say is that I just don’t think we could ever have a lasting relationship. I have prayed about it a lot and I know that he is not the one I am ment to be with.
The kicker here though is there is this other guy I know who is equally as amazing and on fire for God that I really could see myself spending the rest of my life with. We have similar life goals and want to chase after some of the same things. We are different but we are also in cinc enough that I think a relationship could really work. I know I should fall for him but I don’t, I have fallen for the other guy. I feel like God is pushing me toward guy #2 but I cant get guy #1 out of my head. Every time I think I’m over him he does something that makes me fall again. I dont know how to get over guy #1 without just cutting him out of my life (I fell for him about 2 and a half years ago) and I don’t think I could do that.
sorry I just had to get these thoughts out even if they don’t make any sense.
I wonder who people would ship me with and who they would hate. I wonder what the plot would be though. Nothing interesting happens to me. My friends and I have a flair for the dramatic sure but that does not mean anything actually happens. I don’t know sometimes I just think my life would be much more “romantic” to steel a term from Anne Shirley, if i lived within a novel.
It would also be really cool if at the end of my life I could sit down and read the novel, instead of living it.
